About That Pregnancy

She buys a pregnancy testing kit. She pees on it. She waits. She drums the top of the bathroom cabinet with her long fingernails. She waits. She breathes heavily. She waits. She looks at her face in the mirror. Does she look fat? Has she added some kilos? Are her cheeks looking puffier? She waits. Her gaze travels down to […]

Unmarriageable

You knew you were unmarriageable when you could not find it within your selfish self to treat a man like a handicap child. So when other women insisted on picking up plates, filling them with food, handing the plates over to their husbands and boyfriends, you sat there and looking at your man, confirming that his big strong, able hands […]

Here Comes The Shame

In the cover of darkness, everything is clear. Everything is polite. Everyone is your friend. All occupants of the night space work together to make it comfortable. The watchman opens the gate for you, not bothering with your name but opting for the easier, universal ‘Mrembo’ instead. The waiter smiles at you as he refills your glass. The man in […]

Ending The Pregnancy

“I am pregnant”. I watch you mouth the words. You are pregnant. Pregnant. For a few seconds, this word does not make sense to me. It sounds foreign. Greek? Pregnant? I don’t recognize it, nor understand what it means. I am not sure I have heard it before. Have I? I mouth the word myself. To taste its flavour upon […]

I Miss Being Single And Lonely

Dear husband, This letter is copied to all the boys masquerading as men; men who mistakenly think they are God’s gift to women; to husbands who don rings yet do not understand what being a husband entails; and every married man who is a disappointment to his wife. Remember when I was single? You noticed me in a crowd of […]

When Love Left

Chances, if you are married, are that one day you will sit in a courtroom next to your lawyer – who will possibly be a man. Across from you, facing you, eyes unwavering, gaze steely, will sit a man you will wish to have never met, with his lawyer – possibly a lady. You will try to rival the man’s […]

Stained Sheets

The white sheets have blood stains on them. I leave the bed and head to the living room downstairs. I find him, sitting on the couch, his hands cradling his head. The heels of his legs move up and down as if afraid to touch the floor. He is shaking. He is mumbling something. I watch him get up and […]

Let It Burn

When you have met the man of your dreams. He has gone ahead and asked you out. You’ve agreed to his advances because there is a special part of you (who are we kidding, its your heart – and so many other places) that flutter and tingle when he is around you. When one date has led to another. And […]

She Bleeds, She Lives

Every month, from the time a woman (for she is a woman now) hits puberty, to the time she gets to menopause, she will bleed for three to five days through her vagina. It is a natural thing. Every single month, every year after puberty and before menopause, she bleeds. Excluding the months she is pregnant. Or when she is […]

Let It Hurt

You are a human being. What this means? You are made of flesh, bone and blood. All these are secured underneath a layer of skin. The blood ensures that oxygen is transported to your heart (you remember biology, don’t you?) Your heart therefore keeps beating. You are able to function. You breathe. You are alive. Imagine if you were to […]